二十载的无声电影

2007-03-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

Are you going to forget this day ?

Compliments raise doubts.

2007-03-04T03:16:00.000+08:00

ピンポン　！

I am getting hot blooded, i think it's time for me to play some sport!!

When there is a place to vent, i dont care how shit i play!!

The only thing i lack is a partner who can suffer from my shitty ping pong skills.

2007-02-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

Last entry of February.

What should i do now ?
I should pack my stuff, yet i am still purposelessly surfing sites.

What a hot afternoon, i can feel the heat risen from the keyboard.

Yesternight had a bad dream, dreamt that i quarrelled with someone i dislike. Whatever, there are too many things on this earth i wish not to see. Eg. Petronas Ads. Sorry, pal, but i really dislike this ad. I cant bear with their stereotypic and lengthy ads.

Despite leaving this place soon, i am in bad mood right now.

Sometimes i cant bear to look back this blog, it's so repetitive, failures after failures.

God hate me as well. I guess.

2007-02-10T07:14:00.000+08:00

It's so lonely in this place.

To graduate from this hell, sigh

Not only joy of life is fleeting, the time too

2007-02-06T02:19:00.000+08:00

Hideous.

I have this dizzy feeling for 3 days.

I dreamt that I commited suicide.

When it is not a good day to live, it is a good day to die.

2007-02-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

We're out of beta!

This tag inspired me a few thoughts.

Before a software released, you can get the beta version or trial version to try. If you found inferiority, the team will be informed and eventually release the least flawed version.

The role of students is actually something similar to beta version, only most of us hide our cons more than rectify them, till we naturally accept them as part of us.

Wait a minute, shoud i say "most of us" ? Or it just me?

I missed 80s.

New Order - Bizarre Love Triangle

2007-01-24T04:28:00.000+08:00

Oh, what the hell, i ruined it all.

It seems like you are depriving me of my places, places i used to go that i cant go now, cause you will be there, places i used to lunch i dare not to show up, cause i afraid i cant having my meal without thinking the other side of my little planet... hahahha.... Just an ordinary day, why i have to make so many troubles for myself ?

2007-01-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

Wasted, wasted.

Time to wake up. Why the hell that i am so sleepy all the time?

2007-01-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

曾想過其實生命沒什么值得畱戀，
假使一天真是死去，真的沒什么大不了
希望是自己爭取的？
我連這點慾望都沒有
我什么都沒有

2007-01-15T05:34:00.000+08:00

I was thinking if there is a chance, i can venture into agriculture.
I had thought about what would my life be if i make films.
I even thought about operate restaurant with my friends.

Ideas, i have a lot. Chances are the limitations. Dedication is my biggest obstruction. I do not care what i will become and certainly i myself could never be a "success", a term that mankind keep emphasize on, but i do really care about what people said behind me.

This world just simply made up by 2 groups of people, the winners and the losers. I was in the latter category, unwilling to change, and blame whatever happened to myself to something else, complain and whine everyday.

It's 5.51 am in the morning, good morning to everyone.

2007-01-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

Liebe zu dritt

ich liebe es,
liebe zu machen
am liebsten zu dritt

das ist total out
das ist hippieshit
aber ich sag es laut
ich liebe liebe zu dritt

ich liebe es,
von 4 händen gestreichelt zu werden
ist der eine müde, der zweite ist fit
uuuh! bei der liebe zu dritt

uuuuuh
ich liebe liebe zu dritt

ich liebe es,
liebe zu machen
am liebsten zu dritt

das ist total out
das ist hippieshit
aber ich sag es laut
ich liebe liebe zu dritt

es ist sexy, ekstatisch
tierisch, animalisch

crazy, romantisch
es ist kommunistisch

uuuuuh
ich liebe liebe zu dritt

uuuuuh
es lebe die liebe zu dritt!

2007-01-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

Try to be what i cannot be,
cant believe the gap between the imaginery and real me.
Shame it's still the way i used to be,
crying begging wishing even just once you can lean on me.
Those wrong words seems to be moody,
telling you my dead expectation of getting your kiss.
Day dreams they often made me smiling,
some slight fantasizes will always do the creaming.
I was used by carelessness,
I am feeling blue and my mind isnt blinking.
The underneath is where i am heading to,
wrecked ships and centuries old porcelain dish.
Shall i remember your laughter,
I dont know if i could tell you that I still believe....
The divinely love.

2007-01-10T05:29:00.000+08:00

I am not complete.

There is always something missing, this whole night has been miserable.

Diaby is coming on, Arsenal are leading the kop 5-2. Would you believe that ? What puzzle me more is Arsenal are playing kids. Unbelievable. Wonder the scorelines would be the same if the gunners were playing their first XI.

Background song : "What are you on" by East River Pipe.

Heard that you play a supporting role in drama. Good luck and all the best to you. I've been thinking of you whole night, couldnt sleep, couldnt free myself from a cage of false hallucination. Perhaps I shouldnt confess, but if it's just plain friendship i rather let this connection to be dead. Anything about you is the last thing i would like to hear on earth, if possible, i would like to end up like the main protagonist in "Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind", only i succeed to forever remove you from my mind.

Hyypia scored. 5-3. That made my night less miserable.

Good luck to my friend, who is going to fly to US.

Right before i want to end these paragraphs of mumbles, Baptista scored. 6-3. A roller coaster night for the kop, a much scary one.

Beautiful melancholy, "Lastly" by Walrus signals me to write a melancholic full stop here.

Good morning, everyone.

2007-01-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

7th January 2007.

Dont get me wrong, I am not those who like to abandon their blogs, these days i have been blogging in msn space. Ever since the taiwan
earthquake occured, the network got so fucked up and so i decided
to switch back to blogger.

To be frank, I must admit that blogger is still my favourite.

This is the 7th day of 2007, I just hope i am not going to fuck up
another year.

2006-04-24T21:46:00.002+08:00

时间不会给你有时间去思考，你二十年就这样荒废掉，
矛盾？生活根本就是这么矛盾，至少对你来说是
无声无息过了这么多年，就算突然之间你的死去也无所谓
人家当你是什么？
读什么书，妈的，净会浪费钱
二十年来你有什么是可以给人讲的？
有！衰事丑事大把
丑的历历在目，衰的自己也挥散不去
你有没有问过你自己：
你到底几时才要死？